I'm in a really mellow mood right now. Its midnight... what are you doing right now? I have some Ben Harper playin and some Floyd. I guess this blog this is more theraputic then anything else. I enjoy posting on here, when I feel like it. Guess it just gives me a chance to reflect on the day. This will be my 2nd post for the day, well actually the 1st post on Thursday, depending on when it publishes. I think I'll just make this a recap of the last couple months when alot of posting hasn't been going on. Nevermind I just changed my mind. I think I'm just going to start typing and see what comes up. It's so scary being a senior in high school sometimes. They expect you to go from teenager to "almost adult" status in 9 months, I don't know if I want to/am ready to, do that. If you look at every "adult" out there in the world, they are obsessed with money, their job, and responcibility. Who would want that, there is no fun involved. Most people get up, goto work, come home, cooking something to eat, watch a little T.V and then goto bed. What the hell kind of existance is that? Who would be looking forward to that. Then getting married comes into play, everybodies dream. There is somebody I know of right now, that I am very interested in, but because I'm a wuss I don't tell her. Basically I love this person, and she'll prolly never know. Now, if I were an "almost adult" I would tell her, but *shrugs* I guess I'll just have to wait. Then, the ultimate endgame, children and grandchildren, the conclusion to most of our dreams. I guess the goal of the human race is not to be happy, but to make those that come after us happy. I can understand the reasoning in that, but in some ways it's almost a lost cause. People become more and more like robots, every one acting to a certain pool of responces to every situation he/she is in. What ever happened to the great inventors? Those people that didnt' follow the norm, the ones that weren't afraid to be different? This is the problem the human race has today, everything is so plain and structured. All of society is made of little LEGO blocks, 5 different shapes, 3 different colors. Whatever happend to the pyramid of marbles? each one different, forever changing and abstract? I want to know if I'm the only person that thinks like this? I hope I'm not. Hrm... what else to talk about? My lamp is really cool, it's all bendy and stuff... I enjoy it very much so. Anyways... I feel like, I sit back and watch everybody lead their lives, and I feel so sorry for them... there is so much more people can do and are capible of, and what have we come to? Computers, Cars and the Corporation. Who out there in cyber space thinks its almost concidered a requirement to smoke in art school? I'm talking tobacco products. I have a serious problem with tobacco. It just tears me apart when I see people I care about lighting a cigarette. It is probably one of the most dirty habbits you can pick up, but people do it anyways... very stunning. It is now... 12:12est cool huh? Yea I think I'm going to post a play by play of the time, just to be weird like that and see how long I can keep this post going. I wanna see how long this will be on my page... I'm shooting for a whole page long, that'll be cool. Damnit my headphones just fell off... Listening to The Get up Kids right now... great band check em out. I just found the little text color thing... I'm going to have a bit of fun with it.