Wow, it's been a pretty busy few days. I went to go see my doc. and got some info bout my surgery, chilled with Christine alot, been running lines alot. It's been crazy. Apperently my Doctor doesn't think I'm going to be able to do the play, he would rather me not do it. Which sucks because I've spent two months on this thing, just to throw it out the window? Kindda pisses me off a bit, course I'm not going to listen to him, I'll still do it. I love hanging out with Christine, even though she is completely weird and stuff. Like, today she told me she used suck on her mom's frozen vibrator when she was a baby and eat dog biscuts. What a freak? Who tells people things like that. We watched Forest Gump today, she thought it was pretty good, I knew she'd prolly like it. Also watched Mean Girls, yet another almost chick flick movie. Went to a party and chilled there for a while, met some new people, and had a good time. The play is getting closer and closer, so is my surgery and I'm starting to stress about it. My lines aren't memorized yet, I'm having problems with blocking, not to mention I'm going to miss some key rehearsals. I really really hope I'm going to be able to do this play. October is almost over that means 17 more days, for those of you that keep track, you know what I'm talking about. I think being a Senior is finally starting to catch up with me, I realized how much crap I have to do before the end of the year. I think I can finally discribe exactly what it feels like to be in love, so I think Im going to write a little diddy about it. Well more or less a list:
Love is:
When you can think of nothing else but the person you are with
When everything else takes a back seat
When you can't stay mad
When you float instead of walk
When you tell people things about your life, nobody else knows
When you can finally admit you love the person and not just her bed
When you know you can say nothing and be comfortable.

Wow times 2
It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside
I'm not one of those, who can easily hide
I don't have much money, but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live.

If I was a sculptor, but then again no,
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much, but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you.

And you can tell everybody, this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done,
I hope you don't mind,
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world.

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses, well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song,
It's for people like you, that keep it turned on.
So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do
You see I've forgotten, if they're green or they're blue
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen.

And you can tell everybody, this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done,
I hope you don't mind,
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world.

I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world.

Wow, that's all I can say.

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Hrm... well this may be an interesting one. I really fucked up bad Saturday, I basically broke a really important promise I made to Christine. I feel really bad about it, and trust me Christine let me know how she felt about it. Thank God we worked it out, I couldn't live with myself if anything bad happened. I've decided I'm quiting any kind of illegal activity, it's just not worth it anymore. I really don't need to do it, and it doesn't make me a happier/better person in the logn run, so why bother with it? Right now I'm in the process of making a piece of art for Christine with a black crayon she gave me, touching isn't it? I think I know what it is now, but it's a secret... shhh..... My doc appointment is comming up on Thursday for my surgery, I'm kindda worried about it, of course who wouldn't be? Hrm... lets see.... I think I'm starting to get blisters from walking back and forth to and from Christine's house so much, but I really don't care I love going over there. It's worth it.

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words i don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a diffrent view
And nothing else matters

I don't want to lose Christine

Man, I wish everything was a simple as it seems. Christine and I are getting along very well, but something is bothering her, I'm not going to get into it though. It just pisses me off that somebody could be so heartless and such an ass one moment and a gentlemen the next. I wish I would've gone to Neptunes with her last night, would've saved her alot of grief. I'm just really worried about her, and I know whatever she decides will be the right decision, maybe, but I have faith in her. I just wish she would have some in herself. It's such a shame when somebody has been hurt so many time that she/he can't trust anybody anymore. I'm just really bummed, I might post later. Until then, have fun on ur trip Christine.

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Heyas peoples. Whelp I'm updating more often now, thanks to some peer pressure ;). This one may be a little bit lengthy.

First off, the play seems to be getting worse and worse. I'm not sure we'll be ready in 3 weeks. Mrs. Kraft has moved the play 3 days sooner than what I originally thought. This is bad because of my surgery. *shrugs* oh well, it'll all be fine I'm sure. What is really starting to get to me is how people don't take any responcibility at all for anything they do. Sometimes people just need to learn how to mature up a bit.

Secondly, Christine.... sooo much about her. The last couple of days we have been running lines. It's crazy but I feel really really close to her for some reason, and we've only been hanging out for about a week. We've been talking alot. I love it, how every time she looks at me, she smiles and just looks away. We were talking about this and she said in a few years she'll have huge bags under her eyes from smiling so much. This made me feel pretty good lol. I dunno, it's just really weird how two people can get so close in such short amount of time. We both seem to really enjoy eachothers company. I know it'll last way longer than a week or two. I really adore her, how somebody can be delt a shit hand, and still play poker with it. It just seems to me, that nobody is willing to give her any sort of chance, they just assume what they want and push her aside. She really is a strong person.

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Take a look at this person. This is Christine, her and I are a "couple" now. Anyways its Sunday night, tomorrow is monday, which means school. That means another week of school. Worked on my lines alot today with Christine, she's trying to help me. I appreciate it alot. If you can't tell from that picture, she has the most beautiful eyes... just my opinion

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Hrm... been a few days since I posted. I guess the past couple days have been pretty cool. Got into the Matrix Online beta test, haven't really done much testing yet, *shrugs*. Right now I can't really remember whats happened the last few days, cept seeing Napoleon Dynamite with Christine, Chyna and Matt. Pretty interesting movie. Many many quotable lines. Seems to be a cult classic already. Whelp crunch time is comming for memorizing my lines, I have 277 to remember, I only have about 40 of them so far. Needless to say I need some more work, that's why I'm going back to Seery's house tomorrow, to study my lines ;). Today was pretty cool, basically spent all day with Christine. Started off like any normal Saturday, cept I didn't have a hangover. Cleaned my room, organized it, did laundry. Then Christine came over to chill while I finished up. Went back to her place, kicked her ass in wrestling again, so bad in fact she needed Ryans help. It's weird but she made me totally forget about Haley, oh yea, Haley is back from NCSA. She's back in school here. I feel really sorry for her, but at the same time I'm very dissapointed. Alot of people are. Anyways, Christine and I get along very well, which is kindda weird cuz I really don't know her all that well. We seem to just click.

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Hrm... well finally got my truck... here are some pics:




1987 Ford F150 XLT Lariat... cool car, has some minor problems, nothings I can't fix.

Whelp many many many requests for an update I guess...soooo that's what I'm doing. Updating my blog.

Past few days have been pretty interesting, just got wind of a drug test for some people at our school, needless to say I'm just a bit worried. Invasion of privacy is one thing, ruining a good kids life is another. Been chillin with Christine past few days, still haven't finished Pulp Fiction yet, we are on the final (and best) chapter, of course they are all good chapters, but this one is the bomb. My surgery is inching closer and closer, I'm getting pretty freaked out about it, especially since the play is comming up shortly too.
With power comes great responciblity, to quote Spider Man. I gotta get a job when I get my license, which should be pretty soon, I'm predicting the next couple weeks.

What does a favorite color tell you about a person? I dunno how bout ya'll tell me, I'm interested.

This is quickly turning into 10 million thoughts all in one post, basically I'm typing 40 billion miles per hour trying to satisfy Christine, she better be happy. I'll post again soon.

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Hey guys, I bought my truck today. It's gonna be pretty sweet, I'll get some pics up asap. Anyhoo yea I'm pretty excited over that. It's a truck, something I've always wanted. At least I can go from point a to b now. Yuppers. Sitting here drinking my bottled water and listening to Rob Halford.

Some of the best lyrics ever:

can you sleep as the sound hits your ears one at a time?
an unspokenbalance here,
unabridged for so many years
that i should stare at receivers
to receive her isn't fair
don't worry i'll catch you
don't ever worry
your arms in mine,
anytime I wouldn't trade anything
you're still my everythingto my surprise,
before my eyes, you arrive
don't worry I'll catch you
don't ever worry
I'm still breaking old habits,
habits when you pulled the wool over me
I can see everything,
everything remembering
"jinx removing"don't worry i'll catch you
[x2]don't ever worry
no need for reminding...
you're still all that matters to me


Great song... The get up Kids... I'll catch you
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Oh my fucking God, I am so stupid. Why didn't i say anything while I had the chance? Oh well, I guess my chance is gone, and what little hope we had for anything ended a while ago. Anyways, last night we had a decent little get together. Nothing really that special, night ended pretty early :( . We're in Highschool, what do you expect? Anyways I don't think I've ever been more pissed at myself until now. Anyhoo, hrm... what else to talk about? I'm really starting to worry about my surgery comming up, not so much about my health, but about the play. I hope no complications arise that I can't do it, because that would be very very bad. Well, today I'm going to go watch a movie with Ryan Seery's sister, this should be interesting. Pulp Fiction is the movie that has been chosen. It's a classic, if you haven't seen it, ask me for the Dvd.
Hrm... I may post later today I'm not sure... but for now...
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