Heyas folks,

Well there has been an outcry from my fans for some new posting. This past week Super Fantastic (my band) has aquired a new member... we now have a drummer, how awesome is that?! "Super Fantastic" it's not just a band... it's a life style.
Hrm... news news news... Slowly getting money together for a trip to Europe this summer. That should be pretty awesome. Man I don't really know what to talk about, I'm considering shutting down the old Blogger.... Yea I know it's a shame, almost 2 years on this baby... 120 posts. Good times, bad times, happy times, sad times... everything has to come to an end I suppose. This isn't going to be my last post though. Just keeping you on your toes.
I'm meeting bunches of new people everyday, in fact the past week I've met probably around 15 new people. I'm loving it. I guess I can just walk up to anybody and talk to them, I think that's pretty cool actually.
This is a shout out to all the new people I'm meeting at COA, hey Jennifer, Amy, Ekaterina, Jay (well I knew some of these people before) Jamie, Thomas and all those other cool people in my classes. Man this is a lame post haha.
Maybe I'll start the question of the day back up?

Ok Question:
Your husband/wife has pissed off a large organized crime family. Every 2 years they break his/her collar bone. There is only 1 way to stop this from happening. The only way to stop this, is for all music you hear, everything from singing in the shower to the radio, to now be sung by Alice in Chains. When you sing, you sound like Alice in Chains, MTV all sounds like Alice in Chains. But everybody else hears the normal music. Would you do this to save your others collar bone?

Heyas,

Well it's been a couple weeks. Nothing really all that cool has gone on in my life. Same shit different day I guess. Some kindda cool things have been happening though. A few days ago, I found a bunch of baby snapping turtles in the yard. Sooooo coool, I couldn't find the nest though. I'm starting to learn to play blues harmonica too, sounds kindda lame, but I really like it alot.

Finally, I've decided on what I want to do (regarding further education). I'm going to finish out my associates degree here. Then transfer to UNCW, which has a great film program. I'm sure my plans are lible to change a few more times before then, but I like that idea right now.

Nothing else has really happened though. No girlfriend, I'm still not really interested in anybody right now. I think it has to do alot with the stage of my life I'm in right now. I don't want anything that can really tie me down. I'm capable of leaving everything behind right now and just leaving, and I really enjoy that feeling. Knowing if, I wanted to just drop everything and leave for a couple months, I can do that. I enjoy the "pen pal" kindda thing I have going on with Brittney right now, but it's not going to go any further than that (as far as I can see). I think this summer, I may take a month and go to Europe, and just backpack around. I guess when I think about it, I really don't need anybody, it sounds aweful I know. I enjoy having friends, and god knows I loved Christine to death when we were together. Other than that though, I'm quite content being on my own. I guess it's the age I'm in.

-FIN-

Hey guys,

Whelp summer is coming to an end. It all went too fast, it's crazy to think that less than 4 months ago I was just graduating. I have come to an interesting conclusion in my life, I'm getting bored. I know it sounds weird for somebody my age to be saying that, but I need something else. School, Work, Sleep just isn't cutting it for me right now. I am almost afraid that my attention span for such things could end up being bad for me in the future. There is so much I want to do, but having little patients for waiting ( I even hate getting fast food) I want to do it all at once, right now haha. I'm trying to think of ways to release all this built up energy, writing and art are a couple ways I enjoy.
Good news, well great news, I have finally gotten in contact with Brittney Woods, the one person I've been trying for 3 years to get hold of and I just got in contact with her just recently. It's pretty awesome.
Attention: Super Fantastic may make an appearance at the Brewing Station for Battle of the Bands... Stay Tuned

Well here is a thing that's kindda interesting. In my writing class, my professor wants us to write a list of 100 questions. The questions can relate to anything, and come right from the top of your head. As you write more questions, patterns begin to develop... here are my 100 Questions, well the 89 I did anyways.


Why is the sky blue
Why am I here
What will my future be like
Where am I going
What is love
How much is too much
Tired?
Why 100 questions
Is Microsoft worth buying
How is Jake doing
Will college be worth it
Am I worth it
Elvis or the Beatles
Do you feel lucky
Will I be a good dad
What will 2020 be like
Will my friends always be my friends
How old would Einstien be if he was alive today
Am I really as talented as people say I am
Where has my confidence gone
How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop
Does she still love me
Do I love her
Do I have any regrets
How are my friends doing
How will I die
What is my reason for living
Do fortune cookies really tell fortunes
What was life like in the 60's
Will I be successful
When will people live in space
Will I ever find the right person for me
Is true love possible
Creativity: is it a curse
Apples or Oranges
What is your favorite color
How old am I in dog years
Is fate real
What is reality
What is conscienceness
How much can conscienceness be distorted
What is the theory of realitiviy
Can I acomplish the impossible
Did I ruin it
Why am I confused
What is really in the special sauce
What is my favorite memory
Have I spent my time well
Practice or Talent
What does God look like
Is there a heaven
Why are we facinated by death
How long will I live
Is everything as it seems
What if
Does a higher power exist
Can it work out
Will I do well
What is paranoia
Am I worthy
How much paper is in the world
Why is the grass always greener
Is the grass always greener
What did I do wrong
Is sky diving fun
Will I be a good Parent
Does everybdody have a twin
How much wood would a wood chuck chuck
What if we evolved from birds
Why not 50 questions
Why are we here
What is color
Why do people smoke
Why do we celebrate dead people
Who invented glasses
Who invented pencils
Dogs or Cats
Why are movies cool
Black or White
Tall or Short
How many people exist
What is existance
Are there aliens
Are we the only intelligent beings
Is it worth it
Why is Gold valuable
What am I thinking


And thats it... cool huh

Well it's summer time... Haven't posted at all since graduation haha, been kindda busy. Whelp got my COA schedule, which is pretty cool. I'm taking, English, Psychology, Sociology of the Family, American History and Intro to Communications. Pretty easy semester at COA, 15 credit hours costed me 650 bucks. Anyhoo, after this semester I'm heading north again for the oh so wonderful winter, I'll be going to Kent State while I'm up there, to finish out my associates. It should be interesting. Then... after that? Who knows, maybe head to the beach for a year to work and relax then off to get my degree in something fun, maybe go to film school, maybe go into education... who knows.
It's sad to think that summer is almost over already, so much wasted time. Christine and I finally started talking again on a fairly regular basis, that's good. It doesn't include arguing about stupid shit either, which is a relief.

-FIN-

Whelp, get ready peoples, this is prolly going to be a long one. Tomorrow, well actually today I graduate. Pretty scary eh? Yea I think so too. I've spent the last 12 years of my life working toward this point, and now the only question to ask is.... what's next? I wish I could answer that with upmost confidence, but I really can't. I don't know what's next, I can't decide what I want to be next. Yes I'm going to COA, yes I'm going to get a college education. I still don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life yet though. Some interesting ideas have popped up recently and they are pretty cool.

Regrets? Can't really say I have any, I'm proud of that. Course I'm the person that believe everything happens for a reason, so it's kindda hard to regret anything. I've tried my best in every facet of life thusfar, and I can't complain too much. I wish I would've tried harder on a couple things, so I guess that's a regret right? Yea... damn I suppose I do have a couple. Can't dwell on those though, it's going to be an awesome summer.

Well, talked to somebody for the first time in a while tonight. Told her some things that I've kindda been hiding for a while, and we talked for a little over an hour. I dunno, I try to make everything black and white but it's hard to do, because everything is grey. I wish I could do more at this point, all I can say though is have fun in Europe and make sure you tell your aunt where to sleep, she might get lost and sleep in your closet or something.

A few songs that discribe this year:
The Get up Kids- My Apology
Aerosmith- Sweet Emotions
The Beatles- There are place I remember
The Beatles- Lucy in the sky with Diamonds
Ben Harper- Not Fire not Ice
Bright Eyes- First day of my life
ColdPlay- Yellow
Counting Crows- Accidentally in love
Damien Rice- The Professor
Elton John- Your Song
Five for Fighting- 100 Years
Garth Brooks- Standing Outside the Fire
Van Morrison- Brown Eyed Girl
Led Zepplin- Stairway to Heaven
Oasis- Wonderwall
Luis Armstrong- Wonderful World
Jack Johnson- Do you remember
Radiohead- Everything's in it's right place
The Smiths- Paint a vulgar picture
Something Corporate- I want to save you
Ted Leo and the Pharmacists- Me and Mia
Tim McGraw- Please Remember Me
The Wh0- Behind Blue Eyes


I love you all...... It's been a great time


*A Toast to the Class Of '05*


-FIN-

Well hmm.... I'm really ready for change right now, I want something new and exciting. It almost feels like I'm going through the motions, and I hate that feeling. Those of you that know me well, know I get bored pretty quickly with things. School right now just seems to be one big ass count down, I go to school just to get another one of the days done and through. I spend the day watching the clock and in a daze. It's sad because everything moves so fast and you don't really use the time you have to the fullest until you realize that you're running out of time. Now it sounds like I'm dying haha.
When I look back on this school year, it has been a year of extremes. Extreme happiness to extreme sadness all in a few months time. Really amazing when you think about it. It's been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, started off high, flew down fast and now hopefully it'll end on a high note.

Prom is on Saturday, I'm excited about that. Maybe I'll get to drive a really nice Mustang, that'll be the highlight of the evening I'm sure. It'll be alot of fun I'm sure. After prom though, I don't really know what I'm going to do. I've made some loose plans with Savanna but it's hard to say if those will materialize or not. I don't think I'll be up for getting shit faced after prom, chances are I'll be too tired. I really want to go to the beach afterwards though, I think that would be nice, even if I'm there for a few minutes. Prom definately isn't going to be what I was expecting it to be earlier this year, but that might end up being a good thing, ya never know.

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Well pretty bored right now so I guess I'll make me a little post. I was sitting here listening to music last night when I realized that, there isn't much left for me here after high school. I really love this place, and the people here, but most of those people are leaving, and the outer banks is getting more and more crowded everyday.
The main reason why I decided to stay and go to the community college here for an associates, seemed right at the time and a good idea, but now I'm starting to realize that it wasn't a good enough reason. It would be different if something was possible, but at this point I really don't count on anything happening regarding that.
Well, ya see the sign? The vice principal called it "vandalism" we didn't get in any trouble for it though. Apparently we can do senior pranks, as long as nothing vulgar is seen. I have news for FFHS the sign was just a warning shot compaired to the things that are comming. I'll post pics when I get them, they'll be enjoyable.
Romance? Well none for a long time, kindda sucks but it's nothing new. I really don't know what I want in that area of my life right now, I wan't a girlfriend, but I'm not really interested in any avalible people right now. But, I don't want a girlfriend that requires non stop attention, I dunno if I could handle that this summer, especially since I'll be visiting Ohio and things. Oh well, we'll see, I'll be down here for another 2 years, maybe something will pop up.

-FIN-

Part 1 of senior prank 2005

It's Sunday! Phase 1 of "Operation Dog Ear" will commence tonight. Man, I wish I had a girlfriend again, I kindda miss the whole support thing. Like, I enjoy comming home and telling somebody everything that happened to me that day and that person actually being interested in what I say. It just feels really good to know that somebody cares enough to listen to you tell your boring story about the day haha.
I got my hammock set up in my room, it's pretty cool lookin even though it takes up like all my space. My truck, argh basically took a shit. Brakes went out, just another thing to get fixed before I can drive it on a daily basis. Oh well, what doesn't kill us just makes us stronger I suppose.
Saw a kickass movie this weekend too, its called Coffee and Cigarettes. Great little independent film recorded on black and white film. Basically it's 12 short stories about people sitting around talking while drinking coffee and smoking. So original I love it, we need to see more films like this one. As for the movie Ray, I thought Jamie Foxx kicked ass as Ray Charles, but the movie itself I didn't think was all that great. They made it a bit long for my tastes.

-FIN-

Wow, I can't believe I've been posting on this thing regularly for over a year now, that's pretty crazy. It's just interesting to go back and kindda read what's been going on and how I've been feeling and stuff.
Things have been falling into place pretty well recently, I was afraid at the end of this school year everything would still be separate strands of rope, but things seem to be coming together quite nicely. I now know how much car insurance costs, it's absolutely ridiculous, my truck costs me 190 bucks a month just for liability, that's pretty steep if you ask me. It must just be North Carolina.
Prom is coming up pretty soon as well. I'm excited about going, but I feel pretty bad about a couple things regarding the dance. I put a down payment on a tux yesterday, it's pretty cool I guess.
Drug testing... this is the new thing going around Dare County Schools. Basically anybody that takes advantage of any kind of extra stuff done by the school, aka: Parking, Sports, Clubs, Plays. Can be randomly drug tested next year. The teachers will be tested as well. Now, the Outer Banks is pretty notorious for drugs, and the school system wants to keep the problem out of the schools, hah good luck. Sure, they'll randomly test, but I can promise you that the art dept. will be targeted first haha. I think it's pretty bad when the schools don't trust students enough to make a choice for themselves. Searching the school with drug dogs is one thing, but invading the privacy of the students is something else.
Graduation... not allowed to wear flip flops.... bastards...

-FIN-

Wow, three days in a row? Weird eh? I know. Anyhoo got some more info on graduating today, that's pretty cool. I'd also like to mention my "comment whores" I think it's pretty cool that people I'll probably never meet are reading up on my blog, even though it's not really that interesting.
Plans for next year.... Well I'll be attending COA and hopefully getting an apartment with a couple of my friends, that'll be pretty cool. When this school year started I had no intentions of going to a community college. In fact, I wanted to go to a 4 year big school and start completely new... again. Something changed my mind though, which when I think about it, I kindda stayed here for the wrong reasons. Then again, everything happens for a reason though right?
People are so interesting, if I didn't plan on majoring in theatre, I would definately concider majoring in psychology or sociology, or however you spell it. People are just incredible, no matter how well you know one person, you'll never be able to predict what another person will do. We are powered by intellect, free will and emotion. 3 things that when combined together, make for a very unpredictable outcome. But, if humans are so unpredictable, why do certain social patterns appear? Facing the door in an elevator, or saying "I'm sorry" when you accidentally touch somebody. Kindda weird.
Poor Micheal Jackson, he can never get a break. I feel bad for the guy. It's pretty clear to me that some people just love to take advantage of oppertunities given to them, which isn't really a bad thing, unless it causes pain to another person. Poor MJ has been the target time and time again. Well done with the ramblings.

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This year has been pretty good for the most part. When I look back on it, yea I've had some pretty shitty times, but all those were pretty much nothing compaired to all the good things that happened. At the start of the year John and I made a promise to not let anything slow us down and to do as much as we could. Well I tried to stick to that as much as possible, and I dont' have many regrets.
Guess what? It's spring! Spring is so awesome, there is like little flowers everywhere, birds singing, deer playing in the woods, people seem to just be more happy in the spring time. I guess its the weather n stuff. I gotta admit, the winter blows, and I was just really down this past winter. Spring is a time for rebirth though and it's a wonderful spring thus far.
Oki dookie, next topic for comments is this: If you could go back and change one thing you did this year, what would it be and why?

Have fun with this

-FIN-

OMG I'm so freezing right now. No heat in the house and its windy and 40 degrees outside. Anyhoo just doing a tiny update. I'm finding kind of interesting, from my point of view anyways, how somebody's feelings towards a person can change so quickly and drastically. I've seen it happen time and time again this year, and I was just thinking about it. How does that happen? or Why is the better question. Do explain.

-FIN-

Another really quick post

Power just went out but I found a song that kindda discribes this year in HS.

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass

seven years has gone so fast

wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again

falling from the stars

drenched in my pain again

becoming who we are

as my memory rests

but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed

the innocent can never last

wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again

like we did when spring began

wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again

falling from the stars

drenched in my pain again

becoming who we are

as my memory rests

but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

wake me up when september ends

Well, senior year is comming to an end soon. Just a little over a month until graduation. Many many things have happened this school year, some of which I was proud of... some not so proud of. Regrets? Not really, I don't regret anything I've done, I am dissapointed some things didn't end up the way I wanted them to, or hoped them to, but since when does everything go perfectly?
The reason I'm posting is I just can't sleep. I've been thinking about graduating and how the first major part of my life is over. Public education makes us keep track of the time through semesters or school years, less of the end of the year in January thing. When somebody says "last year" you automatically think last school year, it's just kindda interesting that after this point in my life, last year will no longer mean, last school year.
I still have some fun things planned though. I've been waiting 4 years to do a senior prank, and by God I'm going to do one. It bothers me though that some people have such little faith, you gotta keep being optomistic people! Where there is a will, there is a way. I have dubbed the prank/s "Operation Dog Ear". Although I can't list specific things that will be acomplished I can say that we will have one hell of a cook out on the beach.
Speaking about pranks and graduation and all this makes me think of the reasons I'm glad I'm graduating. I definately won't miss the drama/backstabbing/bitchyness/cattyness of high school. People worry about the most petty shit, and it gets annoying sometimes. I know earlier this year I can't say I wasn't dramatic about some stuff, but when I look back on some things I realize how stupid it is to worry about. Maybe I'm getting back into my old state of mind that life goes on, and life sucks so get a helmet kindda thing. Which is good, you can't let the small stuff bring you down.
Ahhh yes... the Senior Will. The thing that allows seniors the chance to make sure they are remembered next year. I think my next post is going to be a senior will, one that I could write and not expect the school to publish. School limited us to 150 words, most people can get out what they want to say in that, but I just gotta take it to the next level.
I'm just sitting here rambling on I guess. What I'm thinking about right now is how people talk about "being friends" sometimes. I guess I'm in an interesting, well not really, situation. I think that if you really want to be friends with somebody, you wouldn't always talk about it, you would just do it. Somethings though make it hard to be friends with certain people. I guess everybody has something about them that is annoying, or that you don't like. Nobody is perfect, that's a given. Everybody can get on somebodies nerves sometimes. When that happens though, if you really are friends you won't let it bother you too much. Just like I said before, the little things are worthless sometimes. Anyhoo, who wants to be friends with somebody that is very very critical of you? Well I guess if you were friends before and they became that way, it would be a change of pace, but you could cope with it. I was thinkin, people like my grandfather are hard to get along with, because nothing is ever done to his standards. Nothing is perfect or acceptable to people like that, it's hard to deal with sometimes.
Wow, its 12:09 now. New comment game. Favorite word... just post that as your comment, we'll see what kindda words we get. (This should be interesting)

Later On

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Lol, I love how totally random people read my blog, it's pretty cool. My new friend is the "comment whore" Anyways just got done doing a lot of scholarship stuff, the real work is going to be this weekend though. Going to start a new thing on my blog called "song of the moment" basically the song I'm listening to while writing my blog, or the one that I'm listening to as I begin to write, just sumthin kindda weird I'd like to put in. So todays "song of the moment" is Red Hot Chili Peppers- By The I must admit I have illegally downloaded this song and should be fined an extream amount of money for all the stolen material on my computer, but I really don't care.

Starting a new and interesting project hopefully, a movie entitled "Senior Spring". This spring, Austin, David, Caroline and I are going to film our everyday lives and the parties, then edit it and transfer it hopefully to Dvds for each of us. I think that would be pretty cool, just to have something to remember this place and these wonderful people by. Maybe Haley will give us some help with all the technical stuff, I can't really do that on my computer anymore. Anyhoo I'm going to try to update more often now, although the sun is comming out and I'm going to be gone more often now than before. Later On

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Whoa... quick update this time eh? I can't help but express my excitement for this summer, I can't wait. We're going to have the greatest time ever, my friends are comming down and we're just gonna have a lot of fun and stuff. Of course there is the graduation parties too... Mwarr. Hrm... what to talk about. Oh yea, well nothing really I guess lol. Just a tiny little update for the dedicated readers of my awesome life. Holy crap, I wrote my last will and testiment today too, that was a cool experience. Anyhoo Later On

-FIN-

Wow, the past week has been pretty interesting. Got to meet a new person recently, Caroline's friend Megan. She's pretty chill, a little quiet but over all a really cool person. Hrm... This spring break was well, mostly relaxed. Right when break started we recieved some bad news about Mrs. Kraft, she died on good friday. So so so unexpected, and even after the funeral it's still so hard to believe.

Well year is almost over, prom is comming up and all that fun stuff. I still don't know if I'm going to go to prom yet or not, alot of things are just up in the air right now. Had a pretty cool Easter. Also my grandpa kicked his girlfriend out, I thought that whole situation was kind of ammusing. I guess I have a sick sense of humor sometimes.

So long, Farewell... I'll remember you always

-FIN-

Ok, I guess I'll start with the more recent problems and work backwards this time. When somebody tells you something, if it is in the realm of possibility you believe them right? Especially when you have no reason not to.... but after you believe them, they come back telling you they were just messing around and mad that you believed them. Sure it might be funny a couple times, but then what are you supposed to do if he/she is really telling the truth? Of course your first reaction is the "don't cry wolf" concept, you're not going to believe them, why would you? If you do and he/she is messing with you again, they'll just get mad that you keep falling for it. If you don't believe them though, they also may get offended and depending on the truth it may be much more serious. So basically I'm going to change the way I deal with people now, to the good old I'll believe it when I see it philosopy. That way, you never get the shit end of the deal.

Alright next, Mrs. Kraft is in really really bad shape right now. She's been kindda crazy for a while, but now she's sleeping in a hospitol. It really sucks bad, she was like a mother to me. She was a teacher that really cared about her kids, you don't get that too often anymore and its sad. The play has been canceled as well, which I have mixed feelings about. Part of me hates the idea but the other part is just relieved it's all over with. O well, what's done is done. I hope for the best, as everybody does. Hopefully she will make a full recovery.

Of course it's almost the end of Senior year....yay! Anyways I've realized that I have changed alot even since the beggining of this year. Last year I had to be friends with everybody, because I really didn't have friends. Now that I have good friends, I'm not so obsessed with everybody liking me anymore. Which I guess is a good thing. I was thinking last night, that if me from Salem met me from here, they would hate eachother. It's hard to believe that in a time of 2 years, I have become just about everything I used to hate, and I'm trying to change that. Time heals everything though.

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Well sooo much has happened


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Hey, well last night was pretty interesting. I think I figured something out and it kind of makes me sad. No matter what happens I can't stop, and it scares me. I've been kindda dumb lately with the whole thing but I'm trying to distance myself from it. I really can't stop, it's kindda pathetic in one sense, but on the other hand... maybe I really do. People say it alot, but most the time it's just a formality kindda thing, most of the time they really don't understand what they are saying. Last night though, I dunno. It was so hard for me not to say it. I guess time will tell. Happy Saint Patricks Day

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Well time for an update I guess....

Update:
I was sick
I'm better
Play is going well
I still feel kindda sick
My suspicions were right about somebody
A little too right...
Spring is comming
Updating sucks
and so do chicks sometimes
Guys are cool sometimes
But im not gay


-FIN-

She's got a whole lot of reasonss
he cant think of a single one
That can justify leaving
and he got none but he thinks she got so many problems
and he got, too much time to waste

Jack Johnson is the man. Well some things have happened in the past few days. I really don't feel like talking about it right now though, because I seem to have picked up the flu. Flu sucks lol. Went to go see a movie tonight, I guess it was pretty funny, I didn't really pay much attention to it.
Play seems to be going pretty well, I just hope none of the cast caught this off of me, especially Shannon, she has been busting her ass for this show and I'd hate to see anything get in the way of that. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to run lines if I'm not too sick, I'm supposed to be off book for Act 1 by Monday, I should be able to do that, its not outside of my ability I hope.
Well... hmmmm I really dunno what to talk about.

Sail away where no ball and chain

Can keep us from the roarin' waves

Together undivided but forever we'll be free

So sail away aboard our rig

The moon is full and so are we

We're seven drunken pirates

We're the seven deadly sins

Flogging Molly... Pretty cool song actually, really uhm... energizing. Anyhoo this is the topic for this blog, lets see how many posts we can get bout this. Shannon and I were talkin and apparently she has to goto confessional tomorrow, where like a good little girl, she confesses her sins. So my question to you all, is sinning really that bad? How many times can a person do that before he/she is a bad person. You tell me, what sinful thing have you done and will admit to, and why did you do it? Also.... well nvm that's it.

Later On

-FIN-

You can't imagine so many monkeys in the daily mail

All of them coming anonymously so they leave no trail

I never thought I'd have an admirer from overseas

But someone is sending me stationary filled with chimpanzees.

Some chimps in swimsuits, some chimps are swinging from a vine

Some chimps in jackboots, some chimps that wish they could be mine.

Starsky and Hutch chimps, a chimp who's sitting on the can

A pair of Dutch chimps who send their love from Amsterdam.

Another postcard with chimpanzees

And every one is addressed to me.

Also another great song... by Barenaked Ladies. Since people don't like the other songs, I chose a more uplifting song this time lol. Hrm... I said I'd post today so I am, I really didn't do much pretty boring actually. I'm trying to find a new game to play on my computer, my selection has kindda been shrinking for the past year or so.

I think it would be soooo cool to get a postcard from somebody I didn't know from some random place. Some country I never ever heard of, that would be so interesting. Then I would reply with a postcard with chimps on it, and since this is the Outer Banks, put those primates inna bikini or sumthin. That would be pretty sweet. Or like monkeys by the Cape Hatteras Lighthouse... yea buddy, I could make alot of money making this shit up. Here is a question for everybody.... if you had a chimp... what would you name it?

Does anybody else think E.T is quite the attractive alien?

-FIN-

This will all fall down like everything else that was

This too shall pass and all of the words we said

We can't take back

Now every fool in town would've left by now can't replace all the wasted days

The memory of your face-can't help thinkin'

Maybe if we ever could kept it all together

Where would we be

A thousand lost forever

And the promises that you never were giving me

Here's what I'm thinking

It won't be the first -heart that you break

It won't be the last -beautiful girl

The one that you wrecked -won't take you back

If you were the last beautiful girl in the world

Those are some lyrics from a really good song by MatchBox 20. Well it's Saturday, and I'm just chillin tonight, I'm getting a little sick, so I decided to lay low this weekend. I might work on some art tonight I'm not sure yet. Hmm.... what to talk about.... I have really no idea lol. So I'm gonna just start talkin and see what I come up with. David started talking about some crazy ass shit on Thursday, hard to tell what it all meant though. Basically it was just random words in the midst of verbal diarrhea. It was pretty funny at the time.

Right now I got my candles burning, guitar in hand and music playing. I really couldn't be more content. I think I'm going to get my hair cut pretty soon, just trimmed up and layered prolly. I don't wanna cut it short if I don't have to for the play. Me with short hair... is just down right wrong. Hopefully I won't have to cut it all military like, like I thought before. Hopefully I'll get lucky and we won't have another Charlie Brown on our hands.

So what's up with you all? Ya know what's weird? How the littlest things can you remind you of stuff. Like if something important happened to you that involved a dice on the number 4.... Everytime you see a die on 4, you'll remember whatever it was, I think that's pretty cool. It's the same way with songs and stuff like that. *Shrugs*

Well I guess I really don't have much more to talk about right now, I may post tomorrow if

something interesting happens.

! Later On !

-FIN-

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
and rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.
Who said that every wish would be heard
and answered when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
and what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.
All of us under its spell. We know that it's probably magic.
Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that called the young sailors.
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm supposed to be.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Kermit the Frog is the well... frog. Hey peoples... just sitting here 1230am and bored, and not tired. I dunno about anything anymore, I know I have problems of my own, and priorities and values. I tend to stick to these pretty well. I've been known to stray away from my morals from time to time, but I always find myself back into them. I'm in a time in my life right now where simple is good... I'm staying away from everything that alters my state of being. I don't need these things to have fun, boredom is the father of danger, which is true.

So much can change so quickly... change sucks, but thats the only thing you can come to expect. I hate the changes recently, but hey, what can ya do? Nothing all you can do is watch as it happens in front of you, and no matter how hard you try nothing will go the way you want it to, unless u get really lucky. John is the only person I believe really looks out for me 100%. Even I don't care about myself as much as he does, its kindda scary lol. He's been telling me the truth from the get go, and I think I'm finally starting to believe him. It sucks that it's taken this long, but it's better than never.

People... in general are very predictable, but at the same time, they confuse the hell outta me. You can look at the same problem from 20 different people's point of views, and get 2000 different solutions. It's amazing.

You know what I've always wanted to do? Write a little love letter and put at the bottom... "Do you like me?" or "Will you go out with me?" circle yes or no... I think that'd be so funny to send to a random person with no name on it. Just to watch them read it.

Prom is comming up, for a long time I was planning on taking Christine, but obviously plans kindda changed, so I dunno what Im gonna do yet, we'll have to see about that. Maybe I'll take one of my special ed students. If I even go at all.

Well.... Shine on you crazy diamonds...

-FIN-

Heyas people, this is going to be my first real post in quite a while. I see a couple people have been leaving comments, that's pretty cool. Needless to say, alot has happened in a month, alot. Where shall I begin? Hrm....
Well the musical is under way, The Sound of Music, I guess it's going ok thus far. No real problems yet, other than I got the male lead and I'm an absolutely terrible singer lol. George Van Trap.... pernounced Gay Org..... wonderful, yet another gay reference in my acting career. I'm on a roll, man let me tell ya. The show opens in April. Then the NY trip, which should be pretty cool, hopefully.
Ok, what's next? Hm... I dunno, somebody said a couple days ago I used to be the happiest of all my friends, but right now I'm inna slump. Maybe that's true, I dunno lol. It's pretty crazy to think about though. I can think of a couple reasons, but I really don't feel like talking about it anymore than I have to.
Well I guess that's about it for now, sorry for the lack of updatage, cuz I know how people love to read this shit lol.

-FIN-

Hey guys, first post inna while.... This isn't going to be anything but some pics and stuff, notice the new profile pic. Mwarr








Been writing some music lately, pretty cool I guess.


Well thats bout it for now... I promise I'll update again soon...


-FIN-

Hey everybody, this will be my last post for a while. I wish I could end this great legacy that some call a blog on an up note, but really and truely nothing awesome has happened in the past couple weeks so its just gonna be average.

Something has happened in my life recently, it's not the best thing in the world, nor am I happy about it, but you gotta live life I guess. Fact is I didn't expect it to happen, that's why it caught me so off guard, I had a little bit of time to prepare though, I guess I should be happy about that.

The spring musical is comming up, "The Sound of Music".... wow great show, can't wait to be in that one. Hard to say how the casting is going to go at this point though, nobody really has any idea who is going to get what role. We are all waiting in antcipation.

Im anxious to see how the rest of my senior year is going to go, the 1st half was over all pretty decent. This one has started off kindda shitty though, hopefully it'll get better as time goes on. See the reason why I am discontinuing this blog for a while, is because I'm tired of people leaving comments about things they know nothing about. Assuming makes an ass out of you and me, so please people don't do it, it doesn't help anybody. Why can't we all just be friends for once? I'll scratch ur back, if u scratch mine kindda thing.

As for Christine.... well, I guess all I have to do is wait and see. I'm not saying much more about it on here though. I dunno what happened today though, or what her problem was. Ok enough about her, people don't really care.

What do you guys care about? Of course it's not me, or Christine, or having healthy lives... why else would u sit down and read this? You don't care about reputation, because this can't possibly be the coolest thing to do.... hrm....

Well if you all want to know, I guess I should tell you.... here it is:

My name really isn't William James Flannigan, and I was never from the town of Salem, Ohio.... in fact, I'm not even from this planet... I'm from a place called... Archbon... yea that's right bitches! I fooled all of you!!! mwarr!

I find myself day dreaming quite often nowadays... I really don't know what I think about, but I'm sure it involves a couple select people. I'm worried though, I think I'm getting really sick, with a thing they call "Senioritous"... sounds scary eh? Well it happens when you really just don't care about school anymore. It's a terrible terrible illness. I'm also trying this philosophy out on life, but it's not going too well for me, If I dont' care I end up thinking about it alot more....

Well so long, fare thee well....

Until next time folks

-FIN-

No more comments about this please...

Fuck it, I'll post when I feel like it

Update soon I promise

I can't help to think about what could've been. I was just on the phone with somebody about stuff like that. Like I dunno, I wish I could've done a couple things differently now, and I know how I would do them differently. Down to the T.

But you can't live in the past, what's happened has happened and nothing can change that. If you live in the past, you'll never change the future. I want to change the future, but I'm not sure how just yet, I may figure it out or may not, we'll have to see.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, we all make stupid mistakes, and dumb decisions and we've all messed up a few times. Now this is starting to sound like a please forgive me post, gotta stop that.

I'm so afraid that I just blew my last chance, and now nothing can change that because what's happened has happened. Nothing I say or do will change anything now. I hate myself for it. Hopefully in the end, whatever happens will be for the better, it's hard to tell now though.

Alot of things are going to change with 2nd semester, I just hope nothing changes for the worst, change is welcome at good times. Right now though, I think the timing could be a little bit better. I dunno, thinking too much is a disease. I'm just really scared.

-FIN-

Sitting here, bored outta my mind. Nothing to do, nobody to do it with. Kindda sucks I guess. Happy 18th David. Haven't seen Christine in a few days, I guess that's partially my fault, but oh well, what can ya do? I know what I can do, I can sit here and talk about how I haven't done anything since Wensday.

I was supposed to hang out with a couple people today but I guess plans changed. I really have alot to talk about, but I'm not going to put any of it in here, because when I say things I have a bad habbit of giving out a little too much info. I feel really stupid for doing it and I feel really bad about it.

I've realized there really isn't many people you can talk to and trust they won't repeat what you're saying. No matter who you tell, they will always repeat it in one way or another. So the best way to prevent that is to not even think about saying anything. Im really afraid I've gotten myself to a point now where I can't make up for some of the things I've said, and now I'm afraid I may have lost sometthing really close to me, I would do anything to make sure that didn't happen.

Anyhoo back to the brighter side of life, new semester starts in a couple days, pretty easy going semester, theatre, english, history. All easy A's, pretty slack 1/2 half of year. Spring musical is the sound of music, and Sadie Hawkins is comming up... I'm kindda nervous.

I need to figure it out, all of it. Everything that has happened the past few months, what does it all mean? Where will it go, what will happen next?

I love her so much, why doesn't she understand...

Whelp I'm back from Ohio. Did alot of fun things, hung out with most the people I wanted to, and ate Sunnies just about every damn day.... And I have the weight to show for it. Christmas wasn't bad, I got alot of art stuff.... again *sighs*

New years was pretty cool, played video games and talked alot of the night.

Ya'll are asking bout Christine and I? Well.... I'll talk about it later

Cyaz