Hrm... well this may be an interesting one. I really fucked up bad Saturday, I basically broke a really important promise I made to Christine. I feel really bad about it, and trust me Christine let me know how she felt about it. Thank God we worked it out, I couldn't live with myself if anything bad happened. I've decided I'm quiting any kind of illegal activity, it's just not worth it anymore. I really don't need to do it, and it doesn't make me a happier/better person in the logn run, so why bother with it? Right now I'm in the process of making a piece of art for Christine with a black crayon she gave me, touching isn't it? I think I know what it is now, but it's a secret... shhh..... My doc appointment is comming up on Thursday for my surgery, I'm kindda worried about it, of course who wouldn't be? Hrm... lets see.... I think I'm starting to get blisters from walking back and forth to and from Christine's house so much, but I really don't care I love going over there. It's worth it.

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words i don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a diffrent view
And nothing else matters