I have no idea what's going on anymore. I think waaaaayyyy too much for my own good, and take a situation and I disect every little part of it. It makes me so mad that I do that. I just have so many feelings right now about so many things, and I need to figure out how to put everything in a nice little line and go through each thing one at a time.

See what the problem is, I'm scared, but at the same time I want to keep going. So I've gotten over my fear, and I'm going head first into the unknown. I call it the unknown because it's impossible to predict the future. As I fall, I'm catching every single problem on my way and trying my best to fix it before I hit bottom. I'm trying so so soooo hard, I just hope in the end, it'll all be worth the effort.

Man x-mas is comming up soon, I hope this year turns out to be a good one. Christine is going to VA for a while, that should give me time to finish her present, and should give her some time to relax and reflect on a few things. Then she comes back and a day later she may be comming with me to Ohio. I want her to come alot, I just hope everything gets worked out.


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